.. not of the rebellion variety, because what am I avenging against whom if I break my own rule.
But joy as against possible guilt.
Sometimes the rules I make and follow all without my own knowledge become known to me only when I feel uncomfortable at breaking them.In that moment of discomfort as I search for its source, i stumble upon the rule that has made a place for itself quietly in my existence.
The discomfort serves as a torchlight in which the rule comes out shining!
So, the note: upon feeling of discomfort that even remotely smells like guilt, search. Don’t stamp it out. You will never really get rid of the guilt, but would surely lose a chance to meet a creation of your own.