A long drive is also a dive within

Why did I choose to drive long distances solo? I didn’t have to – I just liked the idea of driving solo. Not for arriving at a destination (I could have chosen other modes) or escaping from somewhere (I am happy as I am) – the answer is inside, I guess.

Happy as I am

Happy as I am

Here is my take on why I took my first solo long distance drive for approximately 12 hours with a leisurely lunch break, three short utility breaks and four stoppages for asking directions when Google Maps misdirected me.

1. Curiosity – about self: It has been 49 years under this skin of mine, but is that enough to know myself? Still and stagnant substances begin to decay, but since (I believe) I have not, I must be changing. What makes me, me? What are the limits that keep me still? What are the pushes that move me? What fears hold me? What daring drives me? A drive was just one way to find it out.

Who am I?

Who am I?

2. Folly and blindness: My solo drive would take me through a totally unknown territory of at least 400 kilometers. The car could break down, I could have been attacked. On the other hand, I just don’t know anything about my car under its bonnet. Thanks to my stupidity that blinded me, I was bolder and I just plunged. (Note to myself: one more to-do is learn motor car repairing. Look for a motor car mechanic who offers affordable course during summer vacations).

Stupidity? Or Blindness?

Stupidity? Or Blindness?

3. A pause between self-selected roles: More than what people expect from me (it’s fairly simple: I think about it, and then either I accept it and make it a part of me, or I say I can’t do it and move on), it’s what I want to do in my selected roles, that buzzes me sometimes. I need to make a bubble between those role spaces so that I can – just plainly pause, think, or energize myself, gather my wits, and a lot more. I believe the drive was Β one such lovely, novel bubble that I might ride once more.

What.. Anything?

What.. Anything?

4. A reality-check on responsibility: Well, when I am inside my in-between-spaces bubble, do I take a vacation from my responsibility? The best way to find it out (yet again) is to get into the bubble. I found that a long drive was indeed a good new way to affirm that while I enjoyed the high-speed ride, I was alert and responsible. I refreshed my desire to be alive and in one piece because I wanted more to happen between me and what/the ones I love.

Bubble between responsibilities

Bubble between responsibilities

5. As a memory-jogger on my music: For a long while now, I am not into the habit of listening to my favorite music. While I am open to musical encounters, I believe that y favorite music rides with me. I don’t need devices to hear it. 12 hours – or a good part of them – is a good chance to check on what music rides with me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2TUIQjZT_8Y

 

* All the pictures used here are borrowed, as I did not have time to stop and capture the beauty in camera as I drove 653 kilometers last weekend *

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9 thoughts on “A long drive is also a dive within

  1. Ankit says:

    Ma’m, it seems like you really enjoyed this break. I can understand the joy of travelling alone (even I went for Manali YHAI cycling trip alone). Really liked reading this one. πŸ™‚

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    • Hi Ankit,
      Unfortunately this one by you had gone to the SPAM folder! I just found it – I am so glad πŸ™‚ Yes, I did enjoy the solo very much, and am looking forward to more! How was solo cycling?! It is slightly terrifying to me, as I wonder what would happen if you have a flat, if you have some other mech problems, if you have to stop at dark places alone…… I am glad you are back safe! Would love to read your take on it.

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      • Ankit says:

        Hello mam, since months I was planning to pen down my trip experience but didn’t find time to do it. Finally I’ve done it. If you remember, I was actually planning to visit Amritsar but by luck I found vacant seat in this YHAI trek.
        Cycling was really kool. We were a group of 13 guys who were from different part of the country. We were accompanied by a mechanic who was on motorbike carrying the equipments to repair our bikes in case of mechanical trouble.
        I hope you’ll like the post.

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        • I had only read one at that time – today scrolled further and thought that now there is time for Random Rang – III! Liked your “no incentive to reach the milestone first”… All the best for many more on the roll!

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        • I did! Seems yours was a wise choice πŸ™‚ My son also went for the mountain biking trek from YHAI, and he had a good time, too. Initially I resisted, but then remembered the book “Zen and the art of motorbike maintenance”. Author describes how riding motor bike is superior to riding a car.

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  2. Santosh Sali says:

    Good one ,
    I am sure the joy that you had must be worth the efforts …

    Blog post talks about the journey/process that you have gone through. what would have made more interesting is to ponder on what triggered it and what moved you to take it on the challange. May be another blog-post for this one.

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  3. Sumati Varma says:

    Related to all of this !!

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